Time
By: Lone Heron,
Author of Inherited Rage avail @ amazon.com

Time is like a mercurial sand that slips through one’s fingers. We get busy and the next thing you know the day is half gone. The past few years have been that way for me. It does not seem like it has been over a year since I last blogged, but I know it has. It’s actually been longer but who’s counting?

I had wondered if my blogging actually did any good. I knew I had a small handful of peeps who read and found my blogs beneficial because I received a few mails stating that. Another confirmation that blogging was actually making a difference somewhere was the fact: Inherited Rage, which can be found on amazon.com has dramatically decreased sales since I quit blogging. I can definitively say blogging helps sell books. However, selling books was never my main goal, my main goal was to help others- which seemed to do nothing but bring me frustration. It seemed like instead of finding people who I could join my efforts with to make a difference I just found peeps who wanted to argue about what to do or waste my good intentioned energy but never actually doing anything.

For example:
One of the factors that led to this frustration was Dan Daily. I don’t like it when people don’t keep their word and Dan did not keep his word to me.
In 2013 the proceeds from the sales of Inherited Rage were donated to Dan Daily. Dan agreed to use those proceeds to purchase and install a water pump so that water could be pumped to the main dwelling from the reserve tanks instead of being carried. I will spare you the ramble of all of my exchanges with Dan and summarize it. Over a two years later this water pump still had not been installed and to this day I don’t know how he used that money.

I have read it takes a year to really know someone, you must see a person through all four seasons before you have a true picture of their personality.
If someone has made a promise and a year later it still is unfulfilled chances are high that it will never be filled and time has just shown you something about that person.

I am all for helping. I think everyone needs to find people they can help. I think everyone can help in some small way. I do not believe allowing others to take advantage of our good will or continuing to try to help them when they have shown their word cannot be relied upon helps anything. On the contrary I find such events only deteriorate our faith in others and ultimately in ourselves. We are only as good as our word, and when we don’t keep our agreements no matter how large or small we feed the deterioration of our own society.

I am moving away from parricides and their fate, despite the fact that I am a parricide and I know first hand how these events occur. The negativity wrapped around these events and those who fight for and against them are so intense it is heart breaking, gut wrenching, ulcer creating material. Before I quit blogging I exchanged mails with many different young men incarcerated for parricide. Eventually, with a lil luck they will regain their physical freedom. In the meantime they suffer imprisonment simply because their will to live outweighed their willingness to suffer and or die. Is it their fate to be trapped by a government system that cannot keep its word or vision? Almost every parricide case I am aware of has a long abuse history, recorded by social workers and government agencies that are created to stop such atrocities. People know the truth but they turn blind eyes. They are afraid.

I experienced this as a child. I asked for help and I was told I was exaggerating by the very people who told me I could come to them for anything……..anything except the truth.

Time has a way of clarifying peoples words. It has a way of pulling truths to the surface others would prefer stay buried and forgotten. Time will teach you who is and who is not as good as their word. Time is a great balancer of all things but it allows no secret to hide forever. If you ever wonder or question anyone or thing if you are blessed with the luxury of time, watch and wait your answer will come. It always does.

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